JPop and its associates

I've been getting into Japanese Pop lately, and KPop (Korean) and CPop (Chinese) to a lesser extent. Most of my time online is divided between making small talk and arguing with me boyfriend, and downloading the latest mp3s. And posting messages like this when I feel like it. so all in all, pretty unproductive behaviour. I don't know what there is to do anymore online or in the real world, I feel isolated from the outside, and I feel as though time is slipping away. Next thing you know I'll be too old to do anything young. I guess that's the fear I have, and that I argue with Lui as well. He feels the same way I know, but I'm not ready for what he's proposing. I've barely established what I want from life, if anything, I just want to be happy with what I'm doing. God all this is depressing me. I want to go out with him more often, but I've got responsibilities. Still, there's always next weekend.

The non-identical twin

1. Wouldn't pressure me or hassle me for sex, no matter how desperate he was.
2. Wouldn't make me feel guilty about not having sex with him.
3. Would understand and care for my needs, and not just his own.
4. Would have interests that would interest me as well.
5. Would never let his interests get over his head, or over me.
6. Would have a sensitive, romantic side, with a high EQ.
7. Would have light hearted interests as well as serious ones.
8. Would have eyes only for me.
9. Would surprise me with little talents and occasional gifts.
10. Would take an interest in his looks, but not obsessively.
11. Would ensure that I don't get rashes from being kissed.
12. Would show affection in public shamelessly.
13. Would pay attention to me at all times.
14. Would respect my personal circumstances.

Australian Design Awards

Huh, I just visited the Powerhouse museum this sunday with me boyfriend, and there were some great and pretty crappy examples of "design" on show. I loved the "Rockpool" which was some kind of new age dishwasher, using a rock-like element for cleaning dishes, and the "Gesture rug" which was a rug that had all these blown up latex gloves on it. God it looked so comforting, my boyfriend and I were joking about how we could get naked and lay on it. If only those hands could vibrate. Now there's an idea.

I'm looking at the design awards site and decided to go through the categories and choose those designs that I'd consider actually buying, or using. For example, in the consumer category, I chose the Alex Liddy - Fusion set... bowls and platters and the like... some deliciously brown warm pieces. God they look nice, you feel like holding them in the palm of your hand. I have to admit my preferences can be largely aethestic based, and this one certainly passes the test.

Another product I'd consider buying is the Lotus 23, a new form of rain/sun protection, a reinvention of the umbrella that sounds really useful and longer lasting. And it looks good too.

3 weeks later

Huh, not much as changed, I've been working still for 6 weeks, and I'm getting the hang of things. People at work seem to be leaving me alone, I don't know whether it's my impression on them, or what. But I have been asked to do a couple of presentations for the directors, which is good, because I know I'm good at that, and can show off my skill a little. I'm getting a bit sick of doing the same thing day in, day out though, or at least that's what it seems. I want to be challenged in the job, I want to grow and learn it it, I don't want to be seen as some Friday girl, or some general clerk who can be asked to do anything simple. But that's what it feels like now, and I suppose that's what I am. I don't want to be stuck in a rut, god, I'm better than that. I've done things heaps more complex than what I'm doing now, I just don't know how I can prove it to these people. They probably think I'm dumb.

I want to prove them all wrong. And that I'm capable of more. God it's so frustrating. I want to be paid more as well. I mean, I've had all this education, but by the rate of pay I'm getting, you'd think that I didn't have this level of education at all. God I feel like turning back time, but then again, I'm proud of graduating from uni. I'm glad I went through it. I don't know if it's really taught me that much, but it's an accomplishment I'm proud of. Just wish I didn't have that debt to go with it. God I wish uni education was free. As it should be. Then we'd have more people eager to learn. But no, resources don't allow for that. When are we going to get a society that believes in and regards high education?