JPop and its associates

I've been getting into Japanese Pop lately, and KPop (Korean) and CPop (Chinese) to a lesser extent. Most of my time online is divided between making small talk and arguing with me boyfriend, and downloading the latest mp3s. And posting messages like this when I feel like it. so all in all, pretty unproductive behaviour. I don't know what there is to do anymore online or in the real world, I feel isolated from the outside, and I feel as though time is slipping away. Next thing you know I'll be too old to do anything young. I guess that's the fear I have, and that I argue with Lui as well. He feels the same way I know, but I'm not ready for what he's proposing. I've barely established what I want from life, if anything, I just want to be happy with what I'm doing. God all this is depressing me. I want to go out with him more often, but I've got responsibilities. Still, there's always next weekend.