Lovers and friends

I thought I'd blog a bit today. Just letting you all know how I've been feeling lately. Friends have been texting me, calling me, leaving voicemails, emails, even messages on Facebook. I've been out with a couple of close friends. But I haven't got that many friends, you know, I've always been a bit of a loner. It's been quite different since I've met Vay though. If anything, I've been spending a lot more time with him, probably to the detriment of my other friendships. Sometimes I wonder if I place too much priority on his company. He invited me just last night to after work drinks, with people from his company. I usually go along, try to make a night out of it.

You should've seen me. I was on my best behaviour all night, being a social butterfly, with all these people I hardly know. Being the perfect girlfriend. Still smiling and making polite conversation even when seeing a colleague of his being a bit touchy-feely with him, in full view of me. Oh yeah, it's all in good fun. He seems to enjoy it. Anyone would think she was actually his girlfriend, and that I was the colleague. She's got a couple of guys trying to woo her, even to the extent that one of them even thinks that Vay's got a thing for her, and has to ask permission to move into his so-called territory. I wonder what or who led him to think that.

I don't say much. Don't want to get into an argument or anything. Funnily enough though, we still end up arguing at the end of the night... and surprise surprise, I end up feeling like it's all my fault.

We were at the station, someone from his highschool recognises him after all these years. I thought it was a nice thing that someone should remember him, and we end up sitting together for the rest of the train ride, so that Vay could catch up. I guess I missed the sign that Vay didn't want to catch up, and that he didn't really like this guy for some reason. I should've been a better mind reader, or something.

As he's driving me home, the first thing he says is that I owe him $40 for the dinner (this is true, but did he have to mention it so soon, when he knew I was broke that night), that we should've sat somewhere else, and accused me of being overly interested in what the other guy had to say (even though it was all rather philosophical, and I was getting a bit bored, I was only trying to sound interested for Vay's sake) and that he didn't need me to make him sound good, even though I just wanted the other guy to know how good Vay is too, after the other guy's boasting.

Fat lot of good that did. All my best efforts just backfired. So my apologies if you've been waiting a long time for me to post, I really have been wanting to tell you all about my adventures lately. But I've been feeling run down just lately, just with little things piling up. Hope you understand.